How is your day ?

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"How was your day ?" I could fake it all, and say it was amazing ,
But deep inside there were tears I tried to conseal, smiles which was everywhere except on my face, joy always at the shore and not within. Peace of mind which was questionable and never at peace rather at war.
Days when nothing goes right and everything is just wrong.
Positivity is beyond reach cause my heart just chooses to be negative .
In reality some of my days are just miserable and not because something happened , feeling miserable for no reason .
I would be a liar if I said I have bright sunny days everyday cause some days it's just cloudy and rainy.
I just wanted to say it's okay to have rainy days but remember sun is needed.

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