Jtales

I had a conversation with my friend, and he says, " I aren't like the other girls ." For a moment, I was confused if had to feel special about the fact or compare myself with other girls and feel miserable for not being like them. I chose to clarify with him and asked him if he was trying to  compliment me or criticise me for not being like the others because this is such a confusing statement to make . He told me, that "I aren't put together and sophisticated like the other girls , I should perhaps use some make up." I wanted to agree with him, but I couldn't , because what makes this world beautiful is the difference we all have. And it's our responsibility to embrace the difference we all have . I had mixed emotions , because all my life I was taught to believe that my feminity is my  long hair , my curves and that ideal size . But beauty is beyond the shining skin tone  or that desirable figure . We all have trouble accepting ourselves

I have heard from my parents that the word of God has always comforted them . Thought things were tough the word of God was like a shield for them. I have never understood what it's like to hear from God, maybe I was so much of a sinner that God didn't want to talk to me. I have never understood what signs of God are because I have mistook my laziness and  something not happening to be a sign , I don't know what it is to see a vision in the dream because I have never seen it either . I felt like I'm a sinner because I just don't experience anything Christians normally do . The other day I started feeling sick and I felt like I almost got corona virus because that was all around me, I kept googling for symptoms and confirmed in my mind that what if this is corona and I started worrying  what if I transmit it to my parents. It took me a while to understand that not everything you see is what it is. There is always a blessing is disguise.  Worrying is always