Jtales

To the 21 years of saying no to everything simply because I couldn't step out of my comfort zone . To the years of not doing certain things simply because I believed I wasn't good at it even without trying . This mime changed it all, I was always afraid to get paint on my face because i thought i would develop allergies. I was scared to do formation and be lifted cause I always feared what if I fall. For all these years I was in a fear and was comfortable in my comfort zone . For the first time in 21 years of my life I got on stage to do the actual mime . The first day of practise most of the formation just freaked me out, the second day I fell off and hurt my knee , as days passed by things were getting easier only because I had a strong group supporting me and telling me I could. Today I remain with scars and injuries after the mime , but I have a content inside me which says the hardwork did pay off well and our team did win the third prize. My first ever stage mim

Why did you make this so complicated ? Could you say why you invaded into my childhood ? Could you explain to me why comparisons and marks made it all important? Could you tell me why you put a bag on my wings? What difference did everything make . I became an educated fool with a degree. My routine became predicted. My answers were marked , my questions were given theories. Yet I am a fool with a degree. I don't know what it is to continue breathing when things get tough , my syllabus didn't care to give my mental health priority.  I failed in life because I didn't learn my life manuel , my school didn't have it as a subject. I couldn't identify my passion because I was blamed if I didn't build a career which earned reputation and a handful salary I still remain as a educated fool. I kept studying and kept fooling myself , I kept letting marks determine my capacity. I kept letting institutions wall me. I kept fooling myself in the name of

To my younger self , You are an amazing creation , you are created with a purpose and one day you will definitely reach there. The world is a big trap, it may deceive you but don't be cheated by those fake smiles,beauty standards and fame Cause all these shall pass , but you will remain . You don't have to be liked so don't even try to please everybody , just stay as you are. You are an individual with worth and your actions can never spoil anybody's name cause you don't live for others but yourself . Be it blood or not , if it harms your mental health keep them away. You have the choice to choose the people you want to be by. Never let your mind get into thoughts of comparison cause you can't be campared with anybody. The marks on your paper are just numbers and it will never determine you . Never be afraid to fail, cause failures are as important as winning . Be kind for no reason, don't let your mind fill in with thoughts of unkindness . The