Past before it lasts .

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The past haunts me ,
By helping me recollect everything I choose to forget.
It's being so ruthless, by not showing me any sympathy. Like a cruel villian it follows me .
Memories playing it's part and pasts contributing, my future lying there dreaming big about the tomorrows, being unknown about the past .
I don't want my past to last, if you are going to kill me .
I want my past to not be a grave to my future , rather be a life that lifts me up and says you made it .
History is fun unless it's mine.
I would be proud enough to share how much my past has made me grow only if it would motivate the listener .
"Correct your past before it lasts forever ".
-jtales

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